Being Mary Jane

Addiction is a bisnotch!!!!

 

 

 When people think about addiction they believe it only comes in a form of a substance, a drug, or an alcohol.  But there are many addictions, such as addiction to work, addiction to pain, addiction to a person, addiction to confusion, addiction to money etc.

 

 

Addiction is anything that controls your thoughts to the point that it does not allow you to have a balanced life.  I remember after I left the music business and started the journey I am on now of having a successful speaking and breakthrough coaching business, I became addicted to making it a success, and making it a success fast.  When opportunities would not happen or disappointed me you might have thought I just lost my mind.  I would get depressed and upset and cry each time.  I was hustling so I created many opportunities but they just did not pan out.  I figured out that I was not doing it for the right reasons.  I wanted to become a success not because I had something to offer but because I wanted to show people my success and I wanted them to look and talk about my success.

 

 

I was driven by the wrong thing.  It’s like trying to drive a car in neutral instead of drive.  When you are in neutral you cannot move someone or something must move you along.  That is what having an addiction is like, it’s like you are driving your life in the wrong gear and you have no control because something is moving you along.  The problem is you never actually go anywhere though it feels like it.

 

 

Let me make it a point that now I am in drive and I am no longer addicted to success because I no longer feel like I have to prove anything to anyone.  I want my business to work Meagan McLeod Communications LLC because I know that God has given me gifts that can help others.

I know I am now driving my life in the right gear.

 

 

Mary Jane’s addiction to the married man I believe is not about loving him it’s about wanting what she thinks is hers and not letting go.  It’s about having control.  So the addiction is not to love or even to this man, but it’s about being addicted to control.  In a backwards way people in this situation believe they have control because this man is leaving the home where his wife and kids are to see her.  I mean he even gave her a ring. He is risking everything… to see her.  But really she has no control, whatsoever.

 

 

I won’t ask you are you addicted to anything but I will ask you what is driving your life.

 

 

Are you in Neutral or are you in Drive?